The feeling of being incapable to
describe what you need or simply tell people what you want is kind of feelings
i’ve tried to avoid in life. Then, i see whats more terrible, guess what? Yep,
it is when i realise that i might have been caught between who i am and who i
want to be. I know exactly who i am or what kind of people i am, but thats not
the point. People so far has treated me well, some leave and some stay; life has
shaped me; God has helped me much, too much till i coudnt count them all;
indeed, i am well-equipped and i try to believe it. Then, whats the point? The
more i believe that i am well-eqiupped, the more i get lost in my own mind and
end up questioning myself. It looks like, i havent figured out who i am or
who’s exactly living within my body.
“Who do you want to be?” they ask.
I have many inspirational people on my mind. I’ve been looking up to people whose track record of their life is awesome. But, i cant even be sure whether i really want to be like them or just adore them. Sure, i know what i want to be but i cant explain it in detail like i always do when i organise an event. I used to make a plan and strategy before the battle begins, but for this matter, about who i want to be, i find it hard just to come to the realisation that theres no time for me to wait anymore. Well, i can imagine where i am or who i am in the next five years, but telling you how can i get there is quite hard. Thats my problem! I get all things in my mind about what i want to be but it get blurred all of sudden when i try to explain it to people. Its funny how people then describe me as woman who has no visions. Thats really hurt me, so much!
Who i am and who i want to be; thats the battle between me and another me and future-me-i-ve-been-dreamt-of and me should overtake one of them then lead them to make collaboration. It is not easy, right?
A friend of mine has told me this, “Its okay if you dont find the answer now, you will find it at the right time and when that time comes, you will thank God, you will realise that life is indeed an art and you're the artist!”
So, after taking too much time to think and listen to friend's stories, i begin to understand that its okay to get caught between who you are and who you want to be. Just keep doing right thing, keep believing in yourself and keep walking on your track! Ofc, i am still on my progress and i do believe in me. One certain thing is that God always has a good plan. He will always has a reason why there's thing in world that makes us wonder.
Cheers to another adventure ahead of us! The world may bring us down, but do not worry about it, chin up and walk the stage!
Warm regard,
“Who do you want to be?” they ask.
I have many inspirational people on my mind. I’ve been looking up to people whose track record of their life is awesome. But, i cant even be sure whether i really want to be like them or just adore them. Sure, i know what i want to be but i cant explain it in detail like i always do when i organise an event. I used to make a plan and strategy before the battle begins, but for this matter, about who i want to be, i find it hard just to come to the realisation that theres no time for me to wait anymore. Well, i can imagine where i am or who i am in the next five years, but telling you how can i get there is quite hard. Thats my problem! I get all things in my mind about what i want to be but it get blurred all of sudden when i try to explain it to people. Its funny how people then describe me as woman who has no visions. Thats really hurt me, so much!
Who i am and who i want to be; thats the battle between me and another me and future-me-i-ve-been-dreamt-of and me should overtake one of them then lead them to make collaboration. It is not easy, right?
A friend of mine has told me this, “Its okay if you dont find the answer now, you will find it at the right time and when that time comes, you will thank God, you will realise that life is indeed an art and you're the artist!”
So, after taking too much time to think and listen to friend's stories, i begin to understand that its okay to get caught between who you are and who you want to be. Just keep doing right thing, keep believing in yourself and keep walking on your track! Ofc, i am still on my progress and i do believe in me. One certain thing is that God always has a good plan. He will always has a reason why there's thing in world that makes us wonder.
Cheers to another adventure ahead of us! The world may bring us down, but do not worry about it, chin up and walk the stage!
Warm regard,
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